Silver linings the second time around

Silver linings the second time around

Silver linings the second time around

Having performed the complete cycle of Beethoven’s violin sonatas in February 2020 with American pianist Kate Boyd, we had originally planned to perform the cycle again later that year. But of course, COVID had other plans for us and the soonest that we could rearrange for our second cycle was for 10-17 January 2023 – almost 3 years later.

With the first of these concerts now just a day away, I’ve been reflecting on the new opportunities that presented themselves because of the enforced ‘change of plans’, and the silver linings have been numerous and rather wonderful.

Recovery

The first silver lining of the delay was that it allowed for a substantial break from the original intensity of preparing the first cycle – which was significant, giving us time to really recover physically and mentally.

Two years passed between the original cycle and diving back into preparation for the second time around, and I came back to the sonatas with renewed energy and, even more importantly, fresh ears.

A fresh perspective

Back in February of 2020 when we first performed the cycle, of course we had no idea what was right around the corner.

We performed the cycle literally weeks before the impacts of pandemic reached our shores. Looking back, Kate and I were extremely fortunate to have been able to perform our first cycle without disruption.

Then, considering the upheaval to normality that the whole world had experienced in response to the pandemic, coming back to the sonatas two years later, after all we had been through, I really did have a completely new perspective.

The privilege of playing these incredible works, and sharing them with a whole new audience, feels even more incredible.

A brand new Barenreiter edition

Another silver lining of our delay involved the release of Barenreiter’s new urtext edition of the sonatas – released in 2021, subsequent to our first cycle.

Honestly, being able to use this long-awaited edition has been wonderfully liberating. It provided me with a literal ‘clean slate’ to begin my preparation of the sonatas in 2022 and the beautifully typeset pages have been a joy.

Having previously always used the Henle urtext edition, I was often frustrated by the editor’s fingerings and bowings which were many times in direct opposition to my own instincts and musical desires. I so often had to ignore the editor’s markings on the page, having to actively overide those directions – which is actually easier said than done.

This time around, using the Barenreiter version with no added fingerings or bowings beyond Beethoven’s own phrase and articulation markings, my un-hindered decision making process has been somewhat of a revelation.

I have been free to respond to the music without being swayed by someone elses suggestions of fingers, bowings and even phrasings, and it has been interesting to observe that difference in my interpreation of the music as a result.

Working with Stephen Larsen

The final ‘silver lining’ is perhaps the most significant – the opportunity to play for my inspiring colleague Stephen Larsen on numerous occasions during my preparation in 2022.

I am so grateful for all the time he gave up during the year to listen to me play. I worked through the ten sonatas with Stephen over the course of 2022 and he shared all sorts of technical and musical gems that have had a profound impact on my playing.

It has been a ‘spring clean’ of sorts, with many fun hours spent discussing and experimenting with techniques and musical options.

So thank you Stephen for your insightful support! You will be very much with me during our second cycle performances in the coming days as Kate and I share these extraordinary works with the audiences here in Indianapolis.

 

Here’s to Beethoven and silver linings!

Silver linings the second time around

Having performed the complete cycle of Beethoven’s violin sonatas in February 2020 with American pianist Kate Boyd, we had originally planned to perform the cycle again later that year. But of course, COVID had other plans for us and the soonest that we could rearrange for our second cycle was for 10-17 January 2023 – almost 3 years later.

With the first of these concerts now just a day away, I’ve been reflecting on the new opportunities that presented themselves because of the enforced ‘change of plans’, and the silver linings have been numerous and rather wonderful.

Building Confidence

Radio New Zealang Concert asked me for advice around confidence, and in particular if it can be built.

I believe it can.

You can read what I had to say about it all on their website: Confidence Tricks – some tips for musical performance.

Effort, Age and Survival  

It is over a month since my last blog post and with the 6 weeks that have passed, we are well and truly in mid-summer here in Central Otago.

I have been systematically working through the 10 Beethoven violin sonatas, regularly inspired by the awesome landscapes outside my window, and accompanied by my trusty sidekick – Coco the cat.

It turns out one of the biggest current challenges is physical fatigue.

A reset from the inside out

Having previously performed 6 of the 10 Beethoven violin sonatas more than 20 years ago, it has been a lovely process coming back to the familiar, as well as discovering the new. Primarily due to the work I have been doing over the last 2 years getting to the nitty-gritty of my performance philosophies, these incredibly pristine works of Beethoven are proving to be an absolute gift for me.

Where to from here?

The next three months are super exciting for me, with 3 concerts confirmed in Mid-Feb 2020 for the performance of all 10 Beethoven sonatas within three days…and all in my new gorgeous neighbourhood of Central Otago.

It’s quite possible that I am naïve to the full enormity of this project – but one thing is for sure, sinking my teeth into these works again is a true treat, and the magnitude of the project is just what I am now needing at this point in my life.

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Effort, Age and Survival  

Effort, Age and Survival  

Effort, Age and Survival  

Summertime Practising

It is over a month since my last blog post and with the 6 weeks that have passed, we are well and truly in mid-summer here in Central Otago.

I have been systematically working through the 10 Beethoven violin sonatas, regularly inspired by the awesome landscapes outside my window, and accompanied by my trusty sidekick – Coco the cat.

Physical fatigue

It turns out one of the biggest current challenges is physical fatigue. Kate has mentioned the same, both of us recognizing that our not-so-youthful bodies simply can’t take what they used to…mine being past the half-century mark at 51 years old!!!

Seeing the bright side of this slippery slope, there is a definite opportunity – my body demanding, as a matter of necessity, that I discover and eliminate any unnecessary effort involved in my approach.

It is a matter of survival!

Discovering effort

At this stage in my preparation, pretty much without exception, with each and every phrase I play, upon scanning for ‘effort’ or ‘imbalance’, I always discover something that can be approached with greater ease, balance or release.

I relish these discoveries – each new awareness providing me with knowledge for a better and more rewarding physical approach. Repeating the phrase, peeling off the layers of effort, or feeling renewed balance where it wasn’t, there is always a significant improvement in my technical control and musical expression.

Considering how valuable this renewed ease is for my aging body and my stamina, these discoveries regularly feel miraculous.

A theme for each day

With each day, in my warmup or early stages of playing the first sonata of the day, I look to discover a part of my body that is appealing for attention. For example, as I warmed up today (having just come off a couple of hours of admin at my computer!) my bow arm felt shaky and unstable.

It was not a nice feeling!

So, first locating my centre, then relating how my bow arm was moving relative to my centre, I set out to observe unnecessary tension and/or effort in my whole bow arm.

Quite quickly discovering a feeling of effort, my next task was to locate the precise locations of this effort or tension.

Today’s theme

Turns out, there was locking and stiffness in my wrist.

Next, paying more attention to the specific feeling in my wrist, still relating my movements to my centre, I noticed inflexibility in the relationship between my wrist and the placement of my right elbow.

What followed was hugely valuable clarity that these two points in my arm – my wrist and my elbow – instead of being consistent and stuck in their relationship, benefit hugely from constant malleability. To achieve this malleability, my wrist requires effortless mobility.

This vital awareness become my ‘theme of the day’.

Throughout my practice of Sonatas 9 and 6 today, by applying this awareness, I kept catching the unnecessary tension in my wrist and subsequent inflexibility between my wrist and elbow.

Resetting through release into renewed malleability and ease, I was regularly able to achieve more physical ease and subsequent technical control of my bow. It was the revelation of the day!

In days to come, I will be vigilant to keep this observation alive, over time unravelling my habit of wrist tension and then reveling in the release and ease that follows.

I wonder what I will discover tomorrow?

Where to from here?

Where to from here?

Where to from here?

The next three months are super exciting for me, with 3 concerts confirmed in Mid-Feb 2020 for the performance of all 10 Beethoven violin sonatas within three days…and all in my new gorgeous neighbourhood of Central Otago.

It’s quite possible that I am naïve to the full enormity of this project – but one thing is for sure, sinking my teeth into these works again is a true treat, and the magnitude of the project is just what I am now needing at this point in my life.

New challenges

As many of you will know, I left my beloved NZTrio more than 2 years ago (mid-2017). Ready for some new challenges and moving on from one life-dream to another, my husband Marc Taddei and I sold up in Auckland and bought land in Central Otago in order to build our dream home – which was completed in August this year (2019) and we absolutely love it!!

Throughout the 12-month build, I was heavily involved helping with the project management – a role that I absolutely relished. But of course, this role was all consuming, so for a while there, my violin playing took a bit of a back seat, with just a few projects here and there to keep me in the game.

Where to from here?

Taking several steps back from my performing career has proved to be hugely insightful for me. Initially, I put some significant time into articulating my personal performance philosophy, which required me to analyze in detail my whole approach to playing.

As a result of my continual desire to improve and develop through my career to this point, I have made all sorts of mind and body discoveries that have proved to be hugely valuable – and with some extra space to consider ‘where-to-from-here’ I realise that I’m highly motivated to share my knowledge with other performers. Fundamentally I want to help other professionals perform at their best – and most importantly, support them to truly enjoy what they do. Too many have lost that ability.

Creative Performance Coaching

In order to share my knowledge, I created my Creative Performance Coaching business, built this website and then started coaching professional musicians. I am thrilled to report that every musician has reaped significant rewards from this coaching – and interestingly all this new work delving into my approach and helping others with theirs, has very positively impacted on my own playing and motivation to perform.

Beethoven 2020

Encouraged by this new-found inspiration, I jumped at the chance to perform all 10 Beethoven Sonatas when pianist and good friend Kate Boyd approached me to create a project for her sabbatical from Butler University in the States.

The time was right for a significant project – so Beethoven 2020 was born.